Much Better

Today was a HUGE improvement over yesterday eating wise. I did NOT work out though because I hurt my back lifting something I shouldn't have at work yesterday. It feels a little better tonight. I plan on another good eating day and possibly a quick workout on the elliptical tomorrow before work.

I just wanted to check in and say I was back at it today despite some stressful stuff in my personal life!

Three Steps Forward, One Step Back...

I had a bad eating day yesterday:( Dammit. But as always, I learned from it. I feel like crap this morning and not only because I gained a million pounds. I just feel yucky. I know better and really hope I can save my WW weigh in Saturday. I am going to eat 29 points the next few days and drink loads of water. I feel awesome when I eat right. I get mad at myself when I feel like this!!!!! head banging against the wall!

I can do this!

I am going to go plan out my points for and turn this feeling around:)

Feeling GREAT!

I feel like I come here to blog when I get back on track, well I have BEEN ON TRACK for over a week now and thought I'd pop in tonight.

I am pretty proud of how this month is going. It hasn't been perfect by any means, but it has been one of the best ones I have had in a long time. It actually may be one of the most rewarding as far as soul searching goes. As the journey continues I learn more about myself and what really makes me tick. I guess if I didn't, than I would be back at square one and no way no how is that ever going to happen! I may slip up here and there and get off track, but I am not going back to the old me.

I know how to exercise and I know how the endorphins affect me:) I am a happy camper when I work out. I have to work out to stay happy. I am a better mom, wife, daughter, sister, friend and co worker when I am happy. Some people say they don't have time to exercise and eat right. I say I don't have time not to.

I made it through my birthday weekend without overeating. I feel fantastic. I planned out my meals and made good choices. We still went out to eat and yes, I had my mother's coffee whipped cream cake. I didn't over do it though. I feel like I am on top of the world when I can control what I eat. I will make mistakes again, but for now I am high on life and thrilled of how eating right and exercising makes me feel. I just have to have a plan and execute it.

Discoveries In This Journey

While I have been MOSTLY eating right this year, I wouldn't say I have been perfect by any means. I have done a lot of inner reflection and have discovered some things that I would like to share.

First of all, I was WAY too hard on myself post surgery when I couldn't work out for at least six weeks. I was mad at myself for putting on several pounds. It was too painful. I am back to the workouts and my mood has improved. I am moving forward and not looking back.

I LOVE FOOD and I medicate with it when I am stressed, upset or celebrating. Yeah, yeah yeah, I know, I should have realized this long ago. I realized it, but not to the point that I now realize I was using food like I used alcohol. Food makes me feel better right away, BUT NOT long term. I need to treat food like alcohol. If only it was so easy! I can't just stop eating! I have to respect food and know that when I am eating right I feel good All. The. Time. Not just at the moment the food is being consumed. I think about food and WW a lot. That's okay. I used to think about food a lot too. I also thought about how bad I physically felt, how scared I was to have hypertension, that my jeans were uncomfortable and that I had low self esteem. I was embarressed about the way I looked. You could see on the outside how I felt on the inside:( I don't feel awesome right now because I am up 17pounds, but I definitely feel better than when I was 250 pounds.

Logan has been enabling me to eat bad. It's not his fault. I need to have some self control! When I get an unhealthy idea it usually involves driving somewhere to buy it! He will jump in the car and hunt down the Reese's Big Cups, Whoppers, Pizza, or whatever the craving of the day is. Going forward, I will be the person fetching the "treats"...hopefully this will help me use the head on my shoulders!

Lastly, I have been wearing an XL coat I should have donated long ago. I was feeling big and uncomfortable in it and it was bringing me down. I am going to donate it this weekend after I wash it. I dug out my cute medium sized coat and put it on today to drop of Hayden Lee. What an improvement in my mood!

A Little Tidbit I shared On FB today

I faced the music this morning. I was down 4 pounds since yesterday. Yes, I fluctuate! I was up eight from my last weigh in a month ago, but I feel good. I know what I need to do and I have a plan. One of my resolutions is going to stick to my Saturday meeting. It is too much to change meeting days every week. I need to get more consistant. Plus, than I have friends who go with me:) AND I like the leader! I have today planned out food wise. I need to plan out my exercise for the week and my dinners:). Have a great day everyone. We can Do this!

1/1/11:) Happy New Years!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEARS! Today is my 10 year anniversary of quitting smoking and two years since I quit drinking. Yeah me:). I feel pretty good today. I felt better last year on this day. I have to give myself a break though because I was having a difficult time working out for six weeks after the surgery removing the 6cm by 4cm lump under my breast. Luckily it was nothing, BUT it was very painful to workout during my recovery. When I did try to go back to BodyPump I pulled a different muscle near my breast. I was literally in tears and couldn't lay down for a few nights:( I rested for a few weeks longer and worked out on the elliptical. I love the elliptical, BUT not as my only workout and it does nothing for my mood! I could go on and on and on, but I am guessing you get the picture. It is time to stop looking back and to start fresh.

I am ready to tackle my New Years resolution. I will get to goal and maintain my weight this year. I plan on doing this by planning and executing my meals and exercise. If I fail to plan, I plan to fail. I heard Jillian say this on the Biggest Loser a few yeas ago and it really rings true for me regarding food and exercise. I love planning and I feel like a million dollars when I do, so it seems like a no brainer to me. I plan to make it to BodyPump at least two times each week, Hula Hoop 20 minutes each day and train for a half and full marathon:)

I went through all my old Weight Watchers materials today and threw away the materials that no longer were used with the new Points Plus program. It felt great to purge my WW bag. I made WW crock pot lasagna and can't wait to try it for dinner:). We went to the first BodyPump class of the year and I hooped for twenty minutes. I want to plan out the rest of my week tonight after church and dinner.

Sounds like a great start to 2011 for me:). I hope this blog post leaves you feeling motivated to reach your goals in 2011:) or at least start them!