Tidbits From Today:)!

I have been slacking in the blogging department. I haven't gained any of the recent 12 pounds loss, but I also haven't lost anymore weight recently. I have been tracking, but not as hard core as I'd like to:)

The other night as I was driving home from closing I started to think about what snacks were waiting for me at home...then I remebered that the kitchen was closed:)! What a relief to not have that struggle going on in my head after working a late shift. Closed is closed. I don't have to tell myself I am not going to eat late at night and fail myself by eating! I now know that a closed kitchen means a closed kitchen, no questions asked. Period.

I haven't been able to run without my left knee hurting:(. I had been working out on the elliptical, but it's just not the same stress relief. I have been stressed to the max and need to get the stress level down to a more manageable level. Soon!

Tomorrow is a new month. I will be setting goals for December and achieving them! Stay tuned:)

That's What I'm Talking About

I haven't been to a WW meeting in a few weeks. It just hasn't been something I've needed to keep on track this time. I do need to weigh in 10 times before my vouchers expire at the end of February, so I need to go once in awhile so that work will reimburse me:). I really wanted to go today and had time before my annual doctor's appointment. I really wanted to start thinking about Thanksgiving and how I was going to plan for the big meal:). I had a five pound loss since my last meeting weeks ago. I lost my first five percent:)! Something has clicked this time. It feels different. I feel in control. I feel great. It hasn't been as fast as last time, but I have grown so much more! This is not only about Weight Watchers. This is about planning, counting, saying no when it's not planned, exercising, resting when I'm tired, and the biggest change this time has been closing the kitchen after dinner. I could eat after dinner IF I had points left, BUT I not in control when I eat at night and now I've discovered how much better I sleep! I love sleeping. I even dropped all my sleep aides:). I am thankful that I was able to dig deep at the end of September. It gets easier everyday:). Being healthy makes me a better mom, wife, daughter and friend.

Digging Less This Week

I recommitted to living a healthy lifestyle September 30th of this year. I had to dig REALLY deep. I was really slipping and needed to turn the car around. I needed to change more then I did in the past. I finally feel like I GET IT. No, I am not done, nor will I ever be, BUT I now feel like I have the tools for success!

Every single time I've gained weight it was for all the obvious reasons PLUS I had the bad habit of eating late after night. Sure, it is okay to eat after dinner, BUT not if you were eating mindlessly and points and calories you don't need. I am glad to report that since closing the kitchen each night I have been able to keep it closed and I am not (USUALLY) hungry at night and no longer have cravings for icecream and sprinkles every night!

I am down 10.5 pounds since September 30:). I have 28 pounds to get back to my goal. I am finally in control and it feels great!

Thank you to my friends and family for your support! It helps more then you would guess!

Digging Deep

I've been digging deep for almost a month now. Maybe it's been longer. I am starting to see results finally. This time the weight isn't coming off as fast as I'd like it to and yesterday was especially challenging. There were a lot of treats at work that could have derailed me, but I didn't let them. For instance, the fifteen pizzas I was sent to pick up from Little Ceasers! I CAN eat pizza, but only when I plan for it! I had already accounted for all my points for the day, so I did NOT have any:). There were various other treats at work which I was able resist:). I was pretty hungry late last night and even had myself talked into a peanut butter lollipop, a cheese stick and trisquits...that is until I dug really deep and said " THAT'S NOT HAPPENING" to myself!!! At that point I overindulged in some Trident Layers gum;)! That did the trick. And this morning, the scale was good to me:). I am really close to a break through right now:). It hadn't budged for awhile, so it was the most awesome feeling this morning to see a significant loss:)!

On my drive home from work last night I realized this particular WW journey was moving much slower then I wanted it to, but that I was going to continue doing the things I was doing and then I would certainly see a loss, right? Yeppers:). Sorry if this is all over the place! I feel a bit scattered today, but wanted to jot down some thoughts while Hayden is napping next to me:)

I can do this. I am doing this. If I fail to plan, I plan to fail. Plain and simple. I will trudge on:)

Ramblings While Hooping:)

Today is my day off from exercise...hahahaha, I guess I could count a Saturday working at the MOA Gap as some kind of workout:). Work was nuts today, in a good way! Saturdays are fun and I feel like I am missing a party when I have a Saturday off, NOT that I want to work every Saturday:)! It was awesome to see the kids after work! They spent the night at my parents house last night. I almost missed my 6:00am wake up from Hayden Lee. Almost!

It felt awesome to head into my empty closet this morning. It was the feeling I get when my purse is cleaned out:). Only the things I use were in my closet and drawers this morning:). It was a reminder of my journey. I love feeling motivated:). I still have a lot of digging deep to do, but I feel ready!

I am hooping as I blog. Need to hoop for today. I still need to make up for a missed session from yesterday, but that can wait. This lady needs to relax and snore in front of the T.V.!

Have a great night:)

P.S. The kitchen has been closing after dinner for five weeks now! I just saw a commercial for the McDonalds McRib sandwich and had to check out the stats:). 12 points...a little over a third of my day. not sure if that's worth it!

WOW, That was an EYE OPENER!

Going through my too tight clothing has been both a shock and a major eye opener. I am treating this experience in the same way that I treated the half marathon last weekend. I will grow from this and use it to motivate me back into my size 4 and 6 jeans:)!!!!! I can't wait. I know I can do this. I am digging DEEP!

Owwy! My Finger!

I am sick and tired of jamming my wedding ring on and off every day! I had it resized after I lost 80 pounds and right now it is a bit snug! It hurts no matter how much dish detergent I use:(. So right now I am working towards a pain free ring experience....should be in about 10 pounds:).

I had a fantastic run this morning:). Loved my run and can't wait for another one tomorrow:)

November Goals

I ran a half marathon last weekend. I was not ready and I swear that will never happen again. I finished the race, but it wasn't pretty and I was pretty wiped out the rest of the day. It was a total wake up call! That is the positive spin I can put on that race:). So with that, I am taking the month of November to get back into shape! No time like the present!

I will continue to close the kitchen after dinner, which I started doing in the beginning of October. I will continue to hula hoop twenty minutes each day and track my WW points:) My new commitments are running 3-4 5Ks each week and doing BodyPump two times/week.

Today I ran 3.2 before BodyPump. I did some laundry, paid bills, hooping as I blog, getting a haircut in a bit and heading into work from 3-11:). I have a feeling I will sleep well tonight:). Happy November!