Today is Freaking Amazing

A totally honest and open FB message I just sent to a few friends who are on this journey with me:

Andrea Childers May 14 at 10:23am
Time to eat fricking CROWE! I am soooo freaking EXCITED to share with you my meeting enthusiasm on this dreary Saturday:) Not dreary in my head though!!!!!!! O.M.G. I wish I could have taped the experience of my meeting for you to see! It was WAY more amazing then my account of it could ever be via a fb message! Am I jumping out of your computer yet? If not, I will be! I am typing fast and hitting the keys with fury!

I have had a great week. Was it perfect? NO way! But it was great. I even had a night where I didn't eat a ton of extra points and not record them! NOT a normal occurence. I need to stop night time eating and will probably have to take on the One Day at a Time practice just as I have with alcohol. This is definitely my biggest challenge.

Down 4.0 pounds (195.2 today)! OMG. This is big. Last week was really, really scary for me! Claire and Fran might not know this, BUT I was at 250 pounds when I started this journey. I hit lifetime about 18 months ago. I have slowly gained a bit over the past year. Lifetime for me is doctor noted at 170. I was at a VERY scary 199.2 weigh in last week! The meeting leader was very supportive and reminded me of where I had been and that it isn't too late to get back in control. I left feeling SUPER motivated. That was on a Wednesday. I have been jumping around meetings and I am sure that hasn't helped. I hadn't been to a Saturday meeting in months...my favorite leader...Working retail, I can always make this meeting. I have friends who can also make this meeting. It is a win, win situation that I haven't been taking advantage of! Slap me now! GUESS what? I type this with GOOSEBUMPS as I type that I have to go back to the meeting next week BECAUSE I grabbed the bull by the horns and SNATCHED the "traveling journal"! They started it at this meeting a month ago! OMG! So I guess the traveling jornal has been spoken for for this week and next:( BUT, I grabbed the darn bull by the horns and shouted, "Why can't there be two traveling journals!?!!!!!!!" and the leader handed me a new journal to take home! I have actual tears as I write this! I get it! I am ready! I am here! I am present! I am doing it! I got home, had my breakfast got out my favorite Sharpies and colored all over the cover of the journal. I wrote on the back, "If I fail to plan, I plan to fail"...I wrote on the inside of the cover, "Being overweight is hard, losing weight is hard, choose your hard!". Then I planned out my goals for the week and planned out my points for today:)

BTW, I. Am. Back! I. Am. Back!